I love you more today

During the last few months that my husband has been unemployed, he has found himself getting closer and closer to God. As a wife, it makes my heart beat stronger to see him so involved in his studies and becoming the man that God made him to be.

A few weeks ago he said to me "I love you more today than I did when I married you". I made me smile and cry at the same time because I felt the same way. God has done many wonderful things for our marriage, but the most significant thing he has done is save our marriage. We are far from perfect, but I like to say that now we have become "one". He often kisses me sweetly on my cheek and says " I love you my wiffey, bone of my bones, flesh of my flesh".

So why am I sharing all of this corny stuff you say? well let me tell you why...

4 years ago we could not even stand to look at each other....that's why. God has changed both of us for the better, he has worked on us individually and together. Often times I think about how far God has brought us and how he has a purpose for out marriage.

During the last 8 years we have been trying to have a baby and year after year we have been unsuccessful. We've had countless doctor's appointment, countless test and on and on and on... that has definitely brought some heartache into out marriage. My husband has been wanting a baby for years and I was not able to give him the child that he wanted. After trying for 5 years I convinced myself that I did not want to have a baby anymore so I wouldn't have to think about it anymore and it wouldn't hurt as much. In other words and to be honest...I had lost faith.
For the next few years I lost faith that we would ever have a baby, and I often times kicked my self for not believing.

Through a lot of prayer and encouragement from my wonderful husband my faith has been restored. I BELIEVE that God WILL bless us with a child. Now all we have to do is be patient...
My husband and I pray constantly and he keeps telling me " It's all in God's perfect timing" and I DO believe that with every piece of my body and soul. I believe that all those years that we tried to have a baby God was working on our hearts and souls, and looking back; we where NOT ready to receive his blessing. So today I can tell you that I love my husband more than they day I married him and I can't wait to see the perfect plan that God has for us, and the many blessings that await us.