Why I Love My Husband

My last week meltdown really brought me down to think of how grateful I am to have my husband. There are many reasons why God brought us together, and many reasons why I love him. I decided to write out a list of reasons why I love my husband including what he does for me to make me happy. I am truly blessed as you will see...

1. He still opens doors for me
2.He rubs my back so I can go to sleep at night
3.He kisses on me even when I am in a bad mood
4.He packs my lunch
5.He always ends his conversations with "I love you"
6.He will go out of his way to make me happy
7.He buys me flowers
8.He is a loving father
9.He laughs at my jokes and I love the way he laughs
10.He encourages me to follow my dreams
11. He forgives me when I am wrong
12.He buys my favorite drinks/snacks for me
13.He calls me randomly just to tell me he loves me
14.He cooks when I don't feel like cooking (without burning the house down)
15.He usually gives me possession of the remote control ;)
16.He willingly watches sappy chick flicks with me
17.He sometimes brushes my hair after the shower
18.He doesn’t complain when I bring him with me to go shopping
19. He helps me raise our daughter…he’s truly a partner
20.He lets me do some different projects to keep me from getting bored around here, and then picks up the pieces for me
21.He ALWAYS takes out the trash
22.He gets really excited when I buy him music
23.He doesn’t need the latest and greatest of everything to stay happy–is committed to trying to keep thing simple as possible so we can just enjoy family.
24.He runs any errand I ask him to without hesitation or complaints
25.He ALWAYS helps me clean the house
26.He loves God
27. He uses his spiritual gifts and likes to serve others and makes me proud.
28.He brings out the best in me
29.He will wake up in the middle of the night just to go get something I am craving.
30.He gets excited about the things that I get excited about
31.When I run out of steam, he picks up and gets going. I love him for that, and don’t deserve it at all.
32.He has such a HUGE positive insight on everything
33.He worships whole-heartedly beside me; how empowering to my faith .
34.He takes me on dates
35.He holds my hand when we go out and about
36.He always praises my cooking
37.He irons my clothes every morning
38.He picks out a coat for me to wear on cold days and help me put it on before I go outside
39.He yells "I love you babe" out the window when he drops me off at work
40.He loves my family and loves to go over to my mom's house
41.He always thinks of others before himself
42.He wakes up early to read his bible EVERYDAY
43.He can't wait to go to church every Sunday
44.He hardly ever says NO to me (sometimes dangerous but fun!)
45.He will willingly take us sky diving even though he is afraid of heights just because he know I want to do it.
46.He cuddles with me
47.He is always willing to help
48.He loves me even when I go crazy
49.He tells me I am funny and that he loves me because of it
50.He always tries to find an opportunity to share the gospel with non-believers

I love him so much.

The madness inside my head.

Friday was an ok day...i had a doctor's appointment and then went home. I was not happy about the news and honestly a little scared about it. But over all it was an ok day...

Saturday was great. My not so romantic husband attempted to be romantic by making a delicious meal at home. Flowers and candles on the table...it was wonderful...I love him so much for trying.

Sunday morning...It was horrible. I have no idea how it began, but all i knew is that i had an anxiety attack, i was crying and having a complete meltdown and felt like i could not breathe. My husband not knowin what to do decided to ignore it, which in return made it worse. I began to think all these awful things like how my husband didn't care about me and how i could possibly die of an unknown illness that i could very well have, and how we where never going to make it...and on and on. I started crying so hard that it was so hard for me to breathe. What the heck was wrong with me????
A long time ago, i suffered from anxiety and it was not pretty. I avoided social situations because i never knew when i was going to have an attack and i did not want to be embarrassed. My doctor said that stress can bring them on...the thing is i don't feel that stressed. I am a little worried but nothing like i used too. Nevertheless i managed to ruin our Sunday with my little episode. I don't blame my husband for wanting to run away, but at the same time i needed him to tell me it was ok, that he was going to protect me ,encourage me, and most of all love me.

After the episode i could not open my eyes...they were so swollen from me crying. I began thinking of how awful i must have been to my husband. I apologized for ruining his Sunday and for being awful to him...he looked at me and said "there is nothing to be sorry about...i love you and am here for you". Those simple words could have been the saving grace at the beginning of all of this...but it was not until the end that he figured out how to calm all the madness in my head. And from that we have grown....

I love my husband. Even though he doesn't always have the right words at the right time, he always figures it out...and he loves me even when i am crazy.